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A Step Backwards

by Jimmy Joyride

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1.
From dusk til dawn I know Exactly where to go Behind their back, following the pack Left right, left right, think I might be trapped Somehow this used to be The sweetest thing there is Now the harmony shines a noose in my eys But I'll find a way of getting through the day Choking Moments Riding waves of fear The change is getting near Illusion of a choice slowly numbing my voice Treatment's carried out, day in and day out So close it's almost here But then I cease to care Cruising on a cloud with no worry or doubt But there's one last say before I live this way Choking moment After moment With no disrupt the bodies pile up With no disrupt the bodies pile up With no disrupt the bodies pile up With no disrupt the bodies pile up No more waves of fear It's time to take a leap And gracefully fall
2.
Brainbug 03:43
5am morning Such a beautiful day isn't it? Never got grip on our faint minds But that's ok cause today is a different story, huh? I swear it's all going to turn around I swear it's all swept under the rug I swear they won't even notice it Just need to sit down and think Just let me sit down and think Get up Lost in beams of city lights Skipping stones in pothole baths Tangled in the power lines Electric feeding, silent screaming Preaching to the digital choir Squire of the crystal castle Altar boy in maniacs mass Lifeless carcass, morticians canvas Nobody could handle, the way we gamble Our secrets are simple, fragile and nimble Step outside to these badlands Morse code songs and laser baths Firing rounds to neuron mass Standing older, heading nowhere Gasp for air it's mustard gas Persisting eerie grinding rasp Somewhere in the clouded past The change of patterns, thundering rifles Nobody could handle, the way we gamble Our secrets are simple, fragile and nimble From atop of podiums, suited up, tongues sharp, smiling bright They tried and they failed In heavy boots and helmets, shellshocked ice in their gaze They tried and they failed The workers with shit on their hands, choking dreams for the mouths to be fed They tried and they failed The mothers with babies in their arms, their love doesn't help, hasn't helped yet.
3.
Don't Hide 03:30
What's that? Under that thick, sweet glaze Sterile, polished yet bearing no sense Lines of words Sorted, filtered and carefully groomed Unhinged and aimlessly prude Got the wiring backwards Pick the right feeling Hide the true meaning How come? None of your answers match A single thing initially asked Shortsighted future, based on distorted past Last time, you resembled yourself you Followed intuition Had some ambition It's alright (No one has a clue who you really are) To hide in plain sight (No one needs to see who you really are) Why don't? Just act on a simple urge Without being urged to act Did something change? In a way you think, see, speak or hear Can't shelter forever Inside your fancy cage Pick the right feeling Hide the true meaning Why is it? So important to please Every single one, except for yourself Card house metropolis Laid out by these trembling hands Barely holding together Disaster in the making Followed intuition Had some ambition It's alright (No one has a clue who you really are) To hide in plain sight (No one needs to see who you really are)
4.
Playing a strawman in my whimsical theatre Enticing endeavour for a whip and a needle The efforts all go into bottom scraping Introduce doubt to the equation Strings on the limbs crippling movement Spastic pulls, sick amusement Line of thought, verbal miscarriage Defined by words put into my mouth Hide to exclude Run, yet get caught Agree to avoid Shut up, withdraw Nothing is going to Change in the way things play themselves out Head up the ass all the way round Going full circle again and again Flatlining is a form of resistance Recharge the smug through frivolous burden Scatter the miniature gems unheard of When push comes to shove, go face away Lesser the effort, less the regret Hide to exclude Run, yet get caught Agree to avoid Shut up, withdraw Nothing is going to Change for the better or change for the worse
5.
Pretty girl you're a mess On a roll through dirty streets You welcome them all Through the hole in the wall Of that place where you grew old, Kept your secrets to yourself And dragged them all along Crafting promises she cannot keep Making up goals she won't achieve She beats, she beats, she beats herself up Kicking the habit to care Candy girl hot for fix Bugs and ticks on her lips Speak in tongues slight lisp Amplified VR kiss, Echoing halls with pillows for walls Hideaway forts in cerebral resorts She wanted to change the world But the odds are pathetic Let's set aside Aside the stream and the racing clouds Stand still and don't make a sound Legs planted deep into the ground Let the bones break and your hair fall out Where is everyone? Dethroned, unplugged from thorns of martyrs crown She beat, she beat, she beat herself up Repent, resent, regret Until there's nothing left but stings from Crafting promises she cannot keep Making up goals she won't achieve
6.
Expire 03:38
Lights out On the verge of the life worth living Stare down To the pit of the risks worth taking Find out How to short the circuit Immerse Let the calm caress me You came in on the worst possible time There was absolutely nothing better to do Not a single excuse to refuse Whatever it is you're telling me However fun it might just be Not a single cell in my body to sign up for Small time crimes with bad disguise Yet you insist Why won't you and I Just sleep on it, think it through Why do we both drag it on and Don't let it expire, let it expire Wake up Slip in the lies repeated Let go Of the burden carried Beat down The same old mistakes on Repeat The path of least resistance You know I could but I won't so I don't Cause I don't like to assume Don't like to assume if it's any good for or not Good for a moment or good for a change But even in that case, doubt i take your word for it
7.
Holding Hand 04:11
Preaching the summer In my suburban dreams Rise from the sewers To the light that it brings Through charcoal coasts Into the dead rivers stream The water is filthy But it's just what I need Join Me in the dirt Under the skin Of that rambling freak Words morph to pictures And motions appear In scenes projected To live on their own Rewrite the plot Narrator of the unknown Page after page It makes no sense With the tools from the shed outback I rip the hooks out from my back With no holding hand That holds me back No holding hand It holds me back No holding hand I'm holding back Been laying these bricks for a while now Look at the house I've built Oh it's so spacious in here Don't think I'll ever leave again Been digging these holes for a while now It reeks so bad Do you want to see what's at the bottom of one Oh it reeks so bad
8.
Not enough sleep Not enough time Not enough sleep Not enough time Ill assimilating, Seeping overtaking Slowly overwhelming, Parasitic wasting I am aggravated Mildly irritated Wish I was sedated And intoxicated Neural hitchhiker Your daydreaming guide Slipping through channels Passing my time Can't fucking think In a straight logic line Not enough sleep Not enough time Not enough sleep Not enough time Not enough Mind disintegrating Spiritual healing Endorphins releasing Mindfulness and breathing Senses overpowered Joyfully devoured Distractions they empower To waste another hour Neural hitchhiker Your daydreaming guide Slipping through channels Passing my time Can't really think In a straight logic line No Thinking about thinking Less and less convincing Day and night I'm binging Feeding of the craving Suspension cracking armor Facade begins to crumble Desperately uncover Weakness is my power
9.
Slithering through pale concrete debris Cement thriving snake strangling this Feeling of joy Any other feeling for what it's worth Bargain in vain with your pockets empty Fathering thoughts, one day actions maybe Rattled to sleep, gospel of dreams No! Bring it back to the way it was Before the apathy kicked in Pulled down the shades Of urban sedative folklore Locked in its brutalist shapes Squares of washed out ugly strokes Assigned you your own box. Leading life of quiet desperation Tired of living in quiet desperation Leading life of quiet desperation No more living in quiet desperation Shoot me while I'm happy Shoot me while I'm happy Shoot me while I'm happy Point the gun to my head So I could find the chambers With no eyes or ears Where we would dance Dance panic dance dance, dance dance dance Dance till our head runs wild Uncanny mesmerized Kissing till our lungs collapse Lapse in an endless lap Clap clap clap Clap for the static streaming eyes, hissing and tinnitus packed program, With gems and artifacts buried deep In the white noise sands Digging up the fossils, Troopers of the past Invade the state of undisturbed brain Til there's no more pain, no more pain

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released February 22, 2024

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